This research paper summarizes the personal process the researcher carried out over several months while exploring the question: what is the lived experience of a drama therapy student struggling between her student, therapist, and artist roles? The paper includes a reflection on the process of the autoethnographic method, and explores how the performative component was a valuable element in presenting the findings and catalyzing a useful discussion around the question of how does the creative arts therapist find balance between their therapist and artist roles. Through this research process, the researcher has discovered that this question of finding balance is personal and subjective, therefore there will be no one definitive way to ensure the creative arts therapists can obtain the balance between these roles. Furthermore, it was found that many individuals in the creative arts therapies community believe that it is hardest to make space for both artist and therapist roles during the training program. The overall goal of this research was to create a space where the creative arts therapies community can come together and discuss this question, share their personal process and give support to their colleagues and cohort members. In the future, further research could be done with more participants involved.